Continuation

Hey,

It is hard to understand what you are talking about. Yes, I know what you mean by saying that you are not quite sure about us. Well, neither am I. But how could we possibly be? Sure.
Certainty is something one never gets in a relationship. Why? Because one has to rely on his partner. How do we do that? By simply trusting them.
So, you doubt that I was for real yesterday. I guess you are right. I can't tell you the truth because I don't know what it is myself. But apperantly you strive for answers.
Maybe that is my problem. I can't give you any answers which would satisfy you. Nor me. You think I am cute and funny but way to sincere. Guess what, that is me. 100% of me. This is the way I am and not the funny clown I used to be when we first met. By that time I was not assure of myself. Now I have found my inner peace and I tend not to change just to attract other people who wouldn't be worth knowing.
By now, I can't change my ways for you. Simply because I don't want to.
Don't get me wrong. I like you. I think you are smart, funny and also tempatively beautiful. You are a very indivudal, strong and open-minded person. It's fun to hang around with you.
But.But?But! Yes, there is always going to be this shitty little word.
I have made a decision in the recent past. I gave up something very good because I couldn't see how things would turn out in the future. The fireworks in me were all gone. And don't you think there should be at least sparks of passion flying around when you meet somebody new who you like to spend a reasonable amount of time with?
Time can turn a crush into love and a relationship into a long-term commitment. But ( and here we go again) it can't substitute a missing feeling.
I miss that feeling when I look at you. I see something else. Or nothing at all. I am not sure.
It was a mistake to let time try to fix that problem which only existed in me.
Now we have gone too far. And I am going to let you down.
In my defense I told you that I would right from the start.
It's hard to imagine what will become out of this. At least something brutally honest. And you deserve to be treated honestly.
Let's look for the fireworks. You seem to know where you can find them!
Good luck.
Sorry.